Unless a grain of wheat falls to the ground and dies...

"Covenant" by Sr. Margaret Halaska

"The Father knocks at my door, seeking a home for his son:

Rent is cheap, I say.

I don’t want to rent.
I want to buy, says God.

I’m not sure I want to sell,
but you might come in to look around.

I think I will, says God.

I might let you have a room or two.

I like it, says God. I’ll take the two.
You might decide to give me more some day.
I can wait, says God.

I’d like to give you more,
but it’s a bit difficult.
I need some space for me.

I know, says God, but I’ll wait.
I like what I see.

Hm, maybe I can let you have another room.
I really don’t need that much.

Thanks, says God, I’ll take it.
I like what I see.

I’d like to give you the whole house,
but I’m not sure...

Think on it, says God.
I wouldn’t put you out.
Your house would be mine and my son would live in it.
You’d have more space than you’d ever had before.

I don’t understand at all.

I know, says God, but I can’t tell you about that.
You’ll have to discover it for yourself.
That can only happen if you let him have the whole house.

A bit risky, I say.

Yes, says God, but try me.

I’m not sure—I’ll let you know.

I can wait, says God.
I like what I see.

— Sr. Margaret Halaska

Hi everyone! It's been a long time since i last posted, sorry for not updating this blog as much as we should. Well, some updates on the rhinos, we're currently caught up with lots of ministry as the church gears up to the busier months of the year. Apart from these, also struggling with trying to find ourselves in this journey of discipleship and most importantly, trying to discern God's voice and will in our lives.

I must say that this path of discipleship is indeed not a bed a roses like how we'd love to imagine. Often, as God increases in our lives, our ugliness within is forced to surface and we meet these face to face. These include things like pride, self-centredness, jealousy to name a few.

Of late, i've been challenged constantly, through scripture, ppl around me(xl, jules) and even a prophesy during our last session (post's title) to die to myself, to surrender, give up any expectations and own desires, and leave everything in the hands of God. I've come to realise that this is not a singular event that we go through. There are always going to be new things that we attach ourselves to which over time, we'll have to offer up these to God like how Abraham offered Isaac(his most precious son). This is really really tough!

Hence, i quoted here a nice poem from Bro. Terrence's spiritual journal (http://www.schwiing.blogspot.com/) that i feel sums up this journey of getting to know and trust God in our lives.

"Lord, i believe. Help thou my unbelief!"

Rhino No.7