Return to God
Indeed it was amazing! Just as 69 mentioned! God was present in every step of the way during the Rally. He was the source of strength and comfort during the times of tiredness and doubt. I must share the experience I had during this past 3 days. One of the most amazing moments in my life!
After many weeks of stressful and intense band practices and rehearsals, the day drew nearer and nearer. We were in SJI on Thurs and Fri to do sound checks and practice runs in preperation for the day! It was my first time playing in such a big setting! And it was completely different!
I had difficulty adjusting to the "new" environment at first. Especially when we were doing the sound checks! I never knew that playing drums was a substitute for lifting dump-bells till that moment when we were doing the checks! It was really tiring and I couldn't worship! Cos my arms were getting stiffer and rigid and I had problems controlling my sticks.
That moment I knew!
I will not be able to worship if I continue to depend on my own physical strength. But, I still had doubts in me. Why would God attend to me when there are so many other crew members who are also feeling the same way?!
I had that feeling all the way till Sat, D-Day. Inside me I know that I will not be able to continue depending on my own physical strength!
It was Zion's Joy turn to enter the stage. I was fearful. Can I still worship? Angel reminded the team earlier on to worship as we play and sing. But I was still very anxious. Adoration began, and we started playing the first song. Now, I was playing using my own strength. Still very fearful inside!
As the Blessed Sacrament was making its procession up to the stage, I was kneeling and trying to fight that fear in me. I was getting more anxious now. As Fr. Simon walked up to the centre of the stage I could see the Blessed Sacrament. This time I almost lost all hope!
And then, Fr. Simon asked everyone to stretch out our hands to receive the Lord as he presented the Blessed Sacrament. I opened up my hands. After making a turn around the whole auditorium Fr. Simon pointed the Monstrance to my direction. I was shocked for a moment! And then I saw the Eucharist in the Monstrance. I felt Jesus talking to me. He said, "Mervin, why are you scared? Why are you worrying? Let me fill you with my Holy Spirit. My grace is sufficient for you." I teared at that moment. And I felt myself being refreshed and so filled with brightness.
During the PnW later on, I could feel His hand holding me as I was playing. This is true because, I never played the drums grabbing the sticks with my whole palm before. I only used the tips of my fingers and thumb to play the drums. It was a totally new experience letting God play the drums. Once again......He used me as an instrument for HIS GLORY!
The Lord again was my source of strength. And He confirmed this to me when I attended mass this morning.
After many weeks of stressful and intense band practices and rehearsals, the day drew nearer and nearer. We were in SJI on Thurs and Fri to do sound checks and practice runs in preperation for the day! It was my first time playing in such a big setting! And it was completely different!
I had difficulty adjusting to the "new" environment at first. Especially when we were doing the sound checks! I never knew that playing drums was a substitute for lifting dump-bells till that moment when we were doing the checks! It was really tiring and I couldn't worship! Cos my arms were getting stiffer and rigid and I had problems controlling my sticks.
That moment I knew!
I will not be able to worship if I continue to depend on my own physical strength. But, I still had doubts in me. Why would God attend to me when there are so many other crew members who are also feeling the same way?!
I had that feeling all the way till Sat, D-Day. Inside me I know that I will not be able to continue depending on my own physical strength!
It was Zion's Joy turn to enter the stage. I was fearful. Can I still worship? Angel reminded the team earlier on to worship as we play and sing. But I was still very anxious. Adoration began, and we started playing the first song. Now, I was playing using my own strength. Still very fearful inside!
As the Blessed Sacrament was making its procession up to the stage, I was kneeling and trying to fight that fear in me. I was getting more anxious now. As Fr. Simon walked up to the centre of the stage I could see the Blessed Sacrament. This time I almost lost all hope!
And then, Fr. Simon asked everyone to stretch out our hands to receive the Lord as he presented the Blessed Sacrament. I opened up my hands. After making a turn around the whole auditorium Fr. Simon pointed the Monstrance to my direction. I was shocked for a moment! And then I saw the Eucharist in the Monstrance. I felt Jesus talking to me. He said, "Mervin, why are you scared? Why are you worrying? Let me fill you with my Holy Spirit. My grace is sufficient for you." I teared at that moment. And I felt myself being refreshed and so filled with brightness.
During the PnW later on, I could feel His hand holding me as I was playing. This is true because, I never played the drums grabbing the sticks with my whole palm before. I only used the tips of my fingers and thumb to play the drums. It was a totally new experience letting God play the drums. Once again......He used me as an instrument for HIS GLORY!
The Lord again was my source of strength. And He confirmed this to me when I attended mass this morning.
Return to God
With all your Heart
Your Source of Strength and Mercy
Come Seek the Tender Faithfullness of God
Beautiful song after communion. I was again re-affirmed by Him.
Thank You Jesus, Praise You Lord!
Rhino 1
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